LETTER WRITTEN ON 29/04/2012
People says words are very-very powerful but when thing
comes to me they appears helpless because there nothing seems left in words
which I can express through them …specially my emotions.
I don’t know who ware you and don’t know why I love you
so much except that I want to love you like anything. But please tell me that
why this happens that when I go to out world….your love disappears and I found
myself alone…..even in the crowd…why why why……..
Either you have to answer this or let me stop loving you……but
i know that you won’t let me do so because I can’t do so. Why it happens that
when I finds myself alone…..your love starts surrounding myself from every
direction and I let it do so……then nothing appears for me except drop of your love coming out of my eyes. Please help me…….whoever
you are……you can’t do this to anyone….anyone…listening you, what I am saying!
I have no reason to live desperately in this world and
when I think of ending this storythen suddenly your thought comes into my mind that
if I won’t be able to unite with you in this life then everything will repeat
in next life. Somewhere in my mind I know that something or say same thing has
already happened many times before that’s why pain of separation has increased
up to such extend.
When I ask to myself where you live…..then my heart say
you lives I my heart……
When I ask how you looks like then my heart says you
looks like better than anyone……
And
When I asks when we will meet so again my heart says….we
are the one…do distances….no separation
But when things are so complete so why I feel so incomplete?
This much incomplete that many times I
even won’t be able to feel my presence. Hey God…….If you exists so please don’t
test me up to my spirit because 12 years of burning is started burning very
painfully….or might be burning of my spirit since many life’s has made my life
so miserable.. If you really exist so please come and rescue me or otherwise
give me enough power to live with all that with a smile on my face so that every
time I don’t need to hide my painful face from others.
Hey You…..Listen…please try to understand that I don’t want to leave you
but please…please….think of me as well……I even don’t know you or yes know you
best….that you love me or not (love me definitely) but your shadow always walks
with me to provide support without any expectations….tell me what does this
mean for me or for us ? Have you been through such pain in your life already
and helping me to pass thought such painful world or just there for me to
realize your presence….beyond my understanding?
I have not thing to do with myself and your know this
very well so just remember…T am living as shadow of you….till you are here I am
there…..the day you will leave me alone….I won’t be responsible for anything….Anything……….
Still Loving You…Still missing You…Still Suffering with
you………for only single reason…….US.
